5k – August 8

August 8th, 2009

Ran this morning instead of last night.  Had a good run and shaved off 45 seconds from last week.  I walked for 30 sec every half mile (1 minute after 2 miles) and only 30 seconds on the last 200m.    Every time I do this, I have two little angels; One tells me to just quit or just walk and the other one tells me to think of you guys and keep going!

August 8, 2009

Lap 1 02:18.264
Lap 2 02:20.670
Lap 3 02:28.452
Lap 4 02:17.585
Lap 5 02:33.873
Lap 6 02:21.614
Lap 7 02:38.020
Lap 8 02:26.595
Lap 9 02:50.474
Lap 10 02:30.206
Lap 11 02:53.483
Lap 12 02:33.530
Lap 12.5 01:14.201
Total 31:26.967
Average 02:30.957

A lot going on!

August 4th, 2009

I haven’t been on Twitter a lot lately and I haven’t been blogging a lot. I really have hit a slump this past week and maybe if I get it out on “paper”, I can work through it. I have three big parts of my life where things have gone awry:

  • Work
    Back in April, when I started Weightfor160, work was going really slow and I had nothing really to do. Today, I have a lot of responsibility and work to complete and I haven’t been able to hop online as much as I used to, if at all. The work itself is slow and frustrating and the people I am doing it for wanted it yesterday.
  • Church
    I do a lot of volunteer work. Money is not something I can tithe right now; all I can offer is my time. I am in charge of a childrens’ program that will start in the fall and I have been working very hard to get it all ready in time. I also help with the website and music.
  • Home
    And now to the biggest change. I’m freaking out because TOM has yet to come. There are tons of reasons for that: having a baby less than a year ago, nursing, stress from the above areas of my life, anxiety that I might be pregnant, etc. And it is DISCOURAGING. All last week, I was “good”, but lost hardly any weight. If I am pregnant, I will have lost all that I have worked for. I’ll have to stop this weight-loss progress.

All this weekend, I just ate whatever to make myself feel better about all this stress. Pizza, potato chips, apple buns, and chocolate. I just want to sabotage all my hard work because what’s the point now?

DH and I agreed that we don’t know what’s going on and to treat it like a plateau. Keep exercising and eating right. I felt a little encouraged, but my mind can’t stop with the “what if?’s”.

Anyway, just wanted to let you all know where I’ve been, physically and mentally. I hope to get the church projects done in a couple weeks and then can focus my time at home on this!

Another 5K

August 1st, 2009

Last night, I had to wait until the rain was over and ignored my tiredness and did another 5K. I did not eat cheezits before running and that helped. LOL Also, kept time on my iPod’s stopwatch better. Here are my times! 3 minutes faster than last time.

July 31, 2009

Lap 1 02:17.322
Lap 2 02:26.689
Lap 3 02:25.255
Lap 4 02:20.552
Lap 5 02:37.392
Lap 6 02:33.047
Lap 7 02:31.908
Lap 8 02:27.500
Lap 9 02:53.073
Lap 10 02:39.096
Lap 11 02:51.821
Lap 12 02:44.634
Lap 12.5 01:23.416
Total 32:11.705
Average 02:35.009

Weekly Report – #15

August 1st, 2009

I ate pretty good this week, but TOM added a weight plateau and white chocolate!!
Weekly Food - July 31, 2009

Weekly Picture - July 31, 2009

Can you tighten the belt around the budget and the waist?

July 28th, 2009

My family has to tighten the belt on the budget even further. Will this affect my efforts to eat healthy? I asked my Twitter friends and got great suggestions and advice:

@emeralds3: I love tinned sardines in tomato sauce, finely chopped onion and diet mayo. 24p per tin Asda. also stir into pasta. Iv started the Cambridge diet £37. pw, but i spend that on food anyway, no cooking save elec. no driving for food, no petrol!!

@unsafeatanysize: beans and rice! Dried beans are even cheaper. Cook beans, add canned diced tomatoes, chopped onion, garlic, cumin-cheap! cooking your own food is cheaper and healthier than processed food or eating out

@CoachToLose: When on a budget choices are still important. For instance whole wheat pasta, more filling and better for you.

@PatBarone: Frozen veg and fruit are cheaper than fresh, more nutritious than canned. Maybe u can blend them in.

@allisonclark: Frozen veggies and fruit!! yay!

@jules23: hamburger helper. usually $1 +u buy the beef, but lasts least 2 dinners and usually 7-8 pts a cup. Add a veggie or salad

@TweetMyPoints: I have an incredible homemade alfredo sauce that combined with pasta & spinach salad is super cheap! HIGH in points though!

@eatingforlife: BEANS! Delicious, nutritious, and filling! Oh yeah, and farmer’s markets! They’re amazing for good prices, as long as you get stuff that’s locally grown and not imported

@keepingmehonest: Budget staples for our house: bag of frozen chicken breasts, tons of wheat pasta and the local farmers’ markets. Good luck!

@dietDebbie: I picked up some ground turkey, tomatoes and bread – add this to my fresh greenbeans, canned kidney beans -this wk I’ll be OK.

Weekly Report – #14

July 25th, 2009

This week was pretty important to me. If you look at the food this week, I spent the first half of the week trying to keep myself from getting below 200. I outlined why in a previous post and while not completely fixed, I know what to work: Loving ME. Because of my wonderful tweethearts that had such great comments, I did a lot better in the second half of the week. I lost 1.5 pounds this week and did a 5K on a outdoor 400m track.

Weekly Food - July 24, 2009

Here’s my picture this week, after running 5K and a shower:
Weekly Picture - July 24, 2009

Pictures

July 24th, 2009

There was a WW challenge to eat vegetables of varying colors and I wanted to take pictures of that. Unfortunately, I kept forgetting!! Here are the ones I did remember to take (click for larger):

Italian Style Veg Soup
Almonds and raisinsChicken soup
SquashSaladVegetable Medley
ApplesauceBerriesSteamed SpinachSquash

5K pictures
Cross country that didn’t go so good:
5K -not so much

And here’s me running on the track:
5K - track

5K!!

July 24th, 2009

So after last night’s disappointment, I went to the local high school and ran on the 400m track. 12.5 laps. OR: 5K!!

I learned some things.

  1. Have the husband and baby sit away from the beginning of the laps. I got distracted and would forget to hit the timer until a little late.
  2. Do not eat Cheez-its before running. I just walked the entire 11th lap because I felt sick.
  3. Stretch the back of the thighs more.
  4. I overestimated how fast I run on the treadmill and ran my first lap a bit fast, at least for my first time on the “street”.

Despite these little shortfalls, I think I did really good for my first time.

July 24, 2009

Lap 1 02:01.307
Lap 2 02:36.406
Lap 3 02:34.747
Lap 4 02:47.086
Lap 5 02:11.469
Lap 6 03:12.596
Lap 7 02:06.827
Lap 8 02:45.228
Lap 9 03:03.098
Lap 10 03:24.104
Lap 11 04:55.616
Lap 12 02:36.169
Lap 12.5 01:14.493
Total 35:29.146
Average 02:49.511

Updates – 5K and beating 200

July 23rd, 2009

OMG, I feel like such an idiot. My hip and knee had been hurting when I go up stairs, but I knew running on a treadmill or a track would be OK. So we went to the 5K run and it was cross-country!! It was in teh forest and up small hills, and over roots. I even had to get over a big log. After the first mile, my hip was hurting and I stopped.

I feel so disappointed! I really wanted to do that 5K. But my darling husband says he will take me out to the local high school to run on their track tomorrow night. Wish me luck!

Thank you so much for the suggestions on my last post. I have taken some time to think about why I have trouble seeing the 199 on the scale.

One reason is my weight was a layer of protection. With it, I could filter out the shallow and cruel people. The ones that saw past the weight would be more tolerable. Now I have no filter. People are going to see the inside me much more easily and that scares me. Because I don’t love myself.

I don’t see the good my husband does. I think people will see that I’m not smart or funny or hard-working. They will see me for as I feel I am: slow, lame, and lazy.

I never knew this weight-loss journey would involve more than shedding pounds. Not only have I taken on losing 80 pounds, I’ve also taken on giving love to someone that I currently think does not deserve it.

I need help getting over my fear.

July 22nd, 2009

I just can’t get over this fear and my husband suggested I go more in depth on my blog.

I am scared of breaking 200.

Don’t ask me why because I don’t know why! Going from 245 to 200 was easier than going from 200 to 199. And because of that, I’ve been eating just enough extra to keep my scale hovering over 200. It’s the fear of the unknown, fear of losing who I am, and fear of failure.

I need something to make me do the final push. I have to do this for my daughter. And if I don’t find something to motivate me, even if I do the 5K once a week, I’ll just eat more to keep me overweight.

Can you suggest something? Money is very tight right now, so it can’t be “buy something”. Also, I know there are people that have made this leap. Please share your stories here. What helped you?