Also, I needed time to adjust to myself. 60 pounds was a lot and I feel like I am now comfortable with me again! And ready to continue on to the next milestone. I still have time to lose 30 more pounds before April 6, my 30th birthday. Well, 35. I might have put on a pound or two.

It’ll time some time to get back into the groove of things with counting points, exercising, blogging, and twittering. I figure this post is a baby step numero uno!!

• Work
  Back in April, when I started Weightfor160, work was going really slow and I had nothing really to do. Today, I have a lot of responsibility and work to complete and I haven’t been able to hop online as much as I used to, if at all. The work itself is slow and frustrating and the people I am doing it for wanted it yesterday.
• Church
  I do a lot of volunteer work. Money is not something I can tithe right now; all I can offer is my time. I am in charge of a childrens’ program that will start in the fall and I have been working very hard to get it all ready in time. I also help with the website and music.
• Home
  And now to the biggest change. I’m freaking out because TOM has yet to come. There are tons of reasons for that: having a baby less than a year ago, nursing, stress from the above areas of my life, anxiety that I might be pregnant, etc. And it is DISCOURAGING. All last week, I was “good”, but lost hardly any weight. If I am pregnant, I will have lost all that I have worked for. I’ll have to stop this weight-loss progress.

All this weekend, I just ate whatever to make myself feel better about all this stress. Pizza, potato chips, apple buns, and chocolate. I just want to sabotage all my hard work because what’s the point now?

DH and I agreed that we don’t know what’s going on and to treat it like a plateau. Keep exercising and eating right. I felt a little encouraged, but my mind can’t stop with the “what if?’s”.

Anyway, just wanted to let you all know where I’ve been, physically and mentally. I hope to get the church projects done in a couple weeks and then can focus my time at home on this!

WW taught me something that I should have learned years ago: THINK before you eat!!! When I was a kid, my family just ate, without a thought. I just ate because things tasted good. I never gave a brain cell to ascertain if I was hungry or if the food I was eating was healthy. In fact, there is a story that I’ve told my husband a few times: One night, when I was in high school, the thought occurred to me that I didn’t have to eat a second plate of dinner if I wasn’t hungry. So I ate one plate of food and put my plate away. My mother accused me of starving myself!!

One Christmas, my dad bought the family memberships to the nearby gym and I was the only one who used them. However, it was a frustrating experience because I wasn’t eating right, so I was just coming out even in terms of weight. I joined a gym a couple years later, and again, it was another frustrating time.

It wasn’t until I learned to eat that I actually made some headway. And I started biking to and from work, 11 miles each way. When I moved, I gave my bike away, and haven’t found where I live to be bike-friendly on the roads at all!! Besides, I got pregnant and had my baby girl 7 months ago and haven’t gotten around to biking or buying a new bike.

But I did go to meetup.com and searched for “fitness”. There are so many local groups! Boot camps, walk and talk groups, and “fat girl” groups. Now that the weather is better, I am looking forward to getting out. This Saturday, my husband and I are taking the baby to a March of Dimes walk. 4.2 miles!

My new leader is very energetic.  I look forward to working with her.  My daily point total is 36.  23, proportional to my weight, 2 for being a woman, 7 for being a nursing mom to a baby transitioning to solid foods, 0 for having a desk job, 3 for my age range, and 1 for my height.

Today, I had one cup of milk before heading out to volunteering at a consignment fair.  Four hours!  I was starving by the time I got home.  We had grilled chicken.  Two and a half thighs with bone and skin is 22 points!!  But I have 12 left for the day.  It’s hard to get back in the groove.

And I was weighed.  With clothes, it’s 238.4.