I haven’t been on Twitter a lot lately and I haven’t been blogging a lot. I really have hit a slump this past week and maybe if I get it out on “paper”, I can work through it. I have three big parts of my life where things have gone awry:
- Work
Back in April, when I started Weightfor160, work was going really slow and I had nothing really to do. Today, I have a lot of responsibility and work to complete and I haven’t been able to hop online as much as I used to, if at all. The work itself is slow and frustrating and the people I am doing it for wanted it yesterday. - Church
I do a lot of volunteer work. Money is not something I can tithe right now; all I can offer is my time. I am in charge of a childrens’ program that will start in the fall and I have been working very hard to get it all ready in time. I also help with the website and music. - Home
And now to the biggest change. I’m freaking out because TOM has yet to come. There are tons of reasons for that: having a baby less than a year ago, nursing, stress from the above areas of my life, anxiety that I might be pregnant, etc. And it is DISCOURAGING. All last week, I was “good”, but lost hardly any weight. If I am pregnant, I will have lost all that I have worked for. I’ll have to stop this weight-loss progress.
All this weekend, I just ate whatever to make myself feel better about all this stress. Pizza, potato chips, apple buns, and chocolate. I just want to sabotage all my hard work because what’s the point now?
DH and I agreed that we don’t know what’s going on and to treat it like a plateau. Keep exercising and eating right. I felt a little encouraged, but my mind can’t stop with the “what if?’s”.
Anyway, just wanted to let you all know where I’ve been, physically and mentally. I hope to get the church projects done in a couple weeks and then can focus my time at home on this!
WOW, that is a lot going on! I think the first thing you need to do is check to make sure your not preggers… maybe you havent gotten TOM bc you are stressed. And if you DO have a bun in the oven think of it this way: You lost all that weight and now you will have a much healthier pregnancy. Imagine if you would have gotten pregnant before you lost the weight… think about how much more you would have to take off in 9 months.
Anyway, I’m putting the horse in front of the cart… go take that test already- i am sure that whatever God has planned for you will be a blessing : )
I took a test….twice! Once two days before TOM was supposed to come (cuz I counted the 28 days wrong), then two days after! Both negative! If nothing happens by the end of the week, I’m heading in to see the doctor!!
Oh I am sorry your having a hard time. I can certainly understand you have plenty to stress about.
You are volunteering that is awesome! Everyone needs to do that. You being kind is making a difference. That is a positive thing right?
Late? Well either way it will be okay possibly hard and unexpected but okay. I know that is hard to believe at the moment but trust me after 3 unplanned children all is okay, not just okay wonderful.
The work I can totally relate to so lets figure out how we can get paid loads of money by blogging and being clever on twitter
Keep your chin up move ahead be grateful for your blessings and know that tomorrow is just around the corner and can bring brighter days
XO