I just can’t get over this fear and my husband suggested I go more in depth on my blog.
I am scared of breaking 200.
Don’t ask me why because I don’t know why! Going from 245 to 200 was easier than going from 200 to 199. And because of that, I’ve been eating just enough extra to keep my scale hovering over 200. It’s the fear of the unknown, fear of losing who I am, and fear of failure.
I need something to make me do the final push. I have to do this for my daughter. And if I don’t find something to motivate me, even if I do the 5K once a week, I’ll just eat more to keep me overweight.
Can you suggest something? Money is very tight right now, so it can’t be “buy something”. Also, I know there are people that have made this leap. Please share your stories here. What helped you?
Right, this is totally an emotional and mental barrier… Only you can work through this. Only you know what the real issue is. I can just encourage you to start digging into your psyche and not freak out when the answers come.
Good luck!
Re: Hanlie
I am afraid to do that!! But I will try to set some time aside tonight to meditate on why this barrier is here. Thanks!
Why do you think you’re afraid of breaking 200? Maybe you’re afraid by losing weight that extra layer of ‘protection’ will be gone, or that your friends will see you differently, or maybe that you’re afraid of success? Whatever it is, often times people who are overweight, once they start losing the weight they’re afraid of losing themselves.
But I can tell you no matter how much you weigh or what the number says on the scale, you are the same wonderful, beautiful person inside — no matter how you look on the outside.
I also suggest looking to YOURSELF for motivation. Though it’s okay and helpful to look to others for motivation — it all comes down to YOU. if you don’t do for yourself first, you’ll always be looking to others for approval. Instead, learn to love yourself first. The more you love yourself, the more love you’ll have to give others.
Re: Dinneen
That literally brought tears to my eyes. I have always had a low self-esteem and am CONSTANTLY questioning what people think of me. I think my weight pushed people away before getting the chance to hurt me and now what will I have?
I will have to think about loving myself. Am I really beautiful on the inside? Do I really deserve this? I’ll try to answer these questions. Thank you for your input.
What an awesome post – the fact that you could honestly admit the fact that you are afraid to break 200! That in itself is a huge accomplishment lady – admitting is the first step. Now as you begin to reflect, you will need to continue to push yourself. Whenever you get butterflies in your tummy over a thought your having, don’t ignore the thought. Force yourself to think about it. Only you can push yourself beyond where you are now. You are on such a great path already!!!
Re: Jen
I first read “Whenever you get butterflies…., ignore the thought.” I had to go back and reread “DON’T ignore the thought.” I will force myself to think about it. I will set some time aside tonight for myself and really meditate on this. Thank you!
Speaking from experience, could it be that you’re afraid to hit that important step in your goal for fear of breaking the 200 lb barrier, only to go back up over? That is one of the things that holds me back – I’m afraid to hit a goal for fear of not keeping it. No one wants to break 200 lbs, over and over and over. I have noticed that you haven’t been as “dedicated” or at least not tweeting about it as much! Get back up sweetie! You are strong & afterall – the scale is just a scale – a silly torcher device! The numbers don’t mean ANYTHING – it’s how you feel that counts – not a number on a scale! Try taking a break from your scale and just hit the scale on your WW WI days!! The scale can control our minds sometimes!! LOL!!
Re: PhatBFF
That’s a great idea, but I’m not worried about going down and going back up because I’ve done that plenty of times in this journey. I think I would be OK with 199-200 bouncing. I’m scared of seeing a 1 for the first time.
Thanks for noticing I haven’t been on Twitter much. Last week was crazy busy, but also I’m trying not to Twitter from work. I love your advice and support. It really does mean a LOT to me. You and FootDr69 are so peppy!
Maybe it’s not failure you fear, but success. I’ve been stuck too, having lost 100 lbs. In my case, it hasn’t been fear that has stopped further progress, but a chance to get used to myself. Losing weight is disorienting. It’s weird when your own mother says she doesn’t recognize you sometimes. It’s weird when you’re in a store and you notice some strange woman with your children and you realize it’s you in a mirror. Milestones like these are significant, and maybe you just need some time to process the significance for you.
Re: Wendy
I have been very disorientated. I really do not recognize the lady in the mirror and just stare trying to understand that that is me. I want to keep going to meet my goal, but I am definitely taking some time after that to become adjusted!!!!